I tend to write very cliche material, when I try to right something personal in life, and I was on my way to writing another bland diatribe. I realize I tend to be cryptic in my writing, making it useless for the reader, and also constraining on what I feel is quite a cathartic process when done the way it should be.

I almost want to say that the consequences of sin can sometimes cannot be undone, but this isn't a reality because of God's grace. I still have no idea what it means. So I'll say it. It seems like sometimes sins you've done cannot be undone, in this sense, the damage has been done.

I know that God's grace CAN undo it, but I can't say I've experienced it myself. The consequences not only are confined in myself, but to those around me.

I wouldn't say I'm feeling "discouraged" or "down-trodden" at all. I just see I have no hope within myself.

If anything good is gonna come to my life it is never gonna be through me. Like forreal there is nothing good in me. I'm not like normal people that have compassion, that can muster up good works, that are considerate, that have any redeemable qualities. On paper, I would probably hate myself, despise, and just shake my head.

But their is Christ. I've been asking God, "teach me what it is like to know weakness," and I guess He made me realize that I AM. Blessed are the lowly in spirit. I guess I thought I was better than what I really was. It's funny cause God has showed this to me time and time again.

I'm not even on that emo, low self-esteem tip. It's true, I have no redeeming qualities as a human being. Nothing good within myself, like forreal.

I came into this post thinking I was going to write about sin, and it's consequences, but I ended up writing whatever you would call this.

Am I trying to debase myself or have some show of humility? Lols, not at all. What was the point of this post? I don't know, right now I'm thinking of that song "Give him the Glory" though, it's a good song.